LOVELY JOANNA, JIEYING, EILEEN, WENDY AND BENNY AND COOL DREW, JOEL REMEMBERS ITS MY DAY! :D

i dono why i get irritated over these. prolly i just miss a fren.
i just don like being ignore by someone i can rly confide n open to.
if u're angry, why don jus confront mi, that would make mi feel so much better. scold mi or wat.
ignoring mi just makes mi feel left out, sad. i rly lik and enjoy u as a fren if u eva koe. i wonder even if  eva ll feel it anw.
you're someone i take my guards off, someone i want to confide in, someone i can talk deep feeling and learn from, somene that many times touched me, someone tt can teach and guide me, omeone sometimes i irritate and gt irritated with.
one of the closest in the group. ignoring me, den wat is the use or purpose in meeting e rest? the feeling isstill there. lik a kid being totally ignore de feel, just lik when i was a kid, in e past, it just wasn't a nice feeling, a hurtful one indeed. i wonder when will u talk to me like th past again. am i too scare to trust u again? big bro?

dont cry wahju don cry.

i'm sad, and stressed out. i jus wanna escape.
in an environment i'm being scream at, suan, discouraged all e time.
i cant stand it seriously.
if food can make my heart full, i jus wanna eat my hearts out.
if money can make mi shop till i drop and be happy, i jus wanna make more money.
i wish this house and this sch just don exist.
holiday will make mi happier? i hope so.
though times don last forever, but it's certainly so long.

i'm tired, i'm sad, i'm disappointed, i'm discourage.
all seems in vain.

i wish i'm stronger like many. i rly do. i'm learning how to just stay positive and look to U.
i'm prolly jus disappointed with myself.

disappointed. read some blog. realise that some ppl jus ain't that truthful. seriously, i am easy-going but i am not dumb.
i know just that i din wanna brk your lie. i tot you can at least jus admit mistakes and change. looks like you got change and influence by people instead. i tot i mention not to be infuence by people wanting to help change.. one after another. i'm seriously disappointed.
all i know is, Holy Spirit live in us. after knowing Him for so long it still voice down to: are you grieving Him?
i felt sorry for Him. seriously. hai. do wat i cant do.
chui and i both agree that no use sccountig when there isn't submission in the first place. i ain't a bin that when people pour to me, it makes their conscience better. seriusly. utterly disappointed.
and sometimes i rly wonder, do some people really have emotions, conscience and uh-i-dono-wat best can describe. heart? humans. arg. i get it. real humanity? watever. hai. i don wish to care like seriously. yan juan of all these. God i lift these all to You. help me, help dem.

somehow i felt bounded. comply to do ao many things. i wish i can just be wid You. a space only me and You.
i seriously love You. Ur house.
but seriously, just too many things is coming. i just dont seem to handle so well. why cant people just find someone else?
me and my big mouth say yes. now so many things on hand. i wish monday 8 june never come. 
i just wanna complete things on hands well. but things jus kept piling. i hate it. i just cant stand it. fed up. Bie Lai Fan Wo. irritating. people just like to provoke me. buzz off for now pls. 
i dono y. it makes me wonder, i don have much choice.
bounded. yet, wont leave, cos its You that kept mi staying. 

got a fishball stuck in throat kind of feeling nt literally though.
it ain't feeling gd.